so WOW i havent been on in a LONG time and i really need to rant.



what to say hmmmm well i broke up with my boyfriend cause i just wasnt ready as well as the fact that i am afraid to get close to men at all and yeah.

i think my friends and i are going our ways i dont know i just feel this weird vibe all the time im around them (if you read this sorrry i hvnt said anything to you guys yet but i dont wanna say something ill regret)i also dont know if i can still trust the one guy in my life i thought i could trust

my insomnia is on overdrive and in the last 8 days iv probably slept a grand total of maybe 9 hours. fun eh?

its summer and i should be happy but i havnt been for so long!

iv been so depressed. i dont think iv been this depressed since my dad left and blamed it on me!

my mom and i are fighting all the time and its gotten to the point where its come to blows and i have come out the worse for wear

i have exams in 3 days and i am probably gonna fail them cause i cant stop stressing on weather or not my mom is gunna kick me out

my little brother might be stripped from my life by a bitch who as her last act of revenge against me and my family will take him from us and destroy my life again

iv built up these walls because of her and because of that i dont let anyone in and when i do (which i seem to be doing a lot lately) i get hurt so bad that i run, i run from the pain because trying to live with it will kill me

as you read this (which people probably wont) you must be thinking who would even care, we dont know you, your some nobody who we dont care about

but if you get this far then please realize this is all very hard for me to do

i never talk about my problems especially to ppl i dont know